today.
today had effects on other days and people whom i've never met before.
i don't think a simple entry could really explain the magnitude of today... but let me tell u what i did. keep in mind that my actions are simply just actions, but the infinite effect they had is what i stress on.
i realize a lot of my friends are in need now. they might not be my closest friends, they might not even be friends... but i care for them. and they are busy taking care of each other. who is there to care for them? i have made it my deed, i guess, to be there for these people. to be the shadow of comfort behind their grief. i hope i can help them in as much or little as i can.
i went to mc's to pick up some food. a delivery man was running into the shop with a box. he was on the other side of the door as i was exiting. smiling awkwardly, waiting for me to swing the door open so he can slip into the shop after i left. i decided to step aside and let him in before leaving. as i crossed the road, went under the bridge towards deeja's house, he was running back to his truck. it was idled, with hazard lights, on the opposite side of the road, near a police station. he said "thank you boss" as we rushed back to his truck. i said it was alright and went my separate way.
after making sure my friends were alright, i spent hours talking to deeja's brother. juggling work, and family, and friends, the man is quite exhausted. he proceeded to ponder. and i was listening... i took much interest in his thoughts and ideas and in what he had to say. it wasn't about what was going on in his life but more ideas that he would like to witness in motion. i believe his ideas have infinite potential and i am willing to help. not because i can and it would be nice to help him, but because his thoughts and ideas are some of the things that have been creeping within me for a long time.
o... i also carved his name into a tree (he had taken a photo of the tree when i first and last saw him) with bernie and carleel. had a smoke and a beer with him before returning to the house. :)
i had a good day.
surprisingly enough, when i got home, my parents were leaving the house when i got home. that's not the surprising part, they're always up this early... but i was telling my mom about today. and she said, "good for you. as long as you're up for it, and you're doing something, good." i'm glad my mom sees that i'm trying to do something. i'm applying my best traits for something good.
i thank YOU.
as a result of unfortunate and catastrophic events, i believe that what we are doing together is something you have caused... and if u were here today, there is no doubt in my mind that it would be no different.
