catch my breath at 23:37

so.
i been tryin to write lately...
but the story has so many layers... so many "meanwhile" moments...
that i end up just drawing giant diagram... and webs... brainstorming the connections between people and events...something i seem to have catalyzed over the holidays.
it's true what i wrote... i did need help...
and i got it
but now i need guidance... and friendship...
from the people i love and care about.
but i guess i need to distance myself and stay alone a little while...
i think i'm tryin to wake too many up.
or tryin to move too fast forward.

each at his own pace, nick... remind urself that.

i and i will carry on...
it is all i can do... and if there is anyone out there who needs closure... just ask...
i'm done chasing.
i'm tired again...